Hello , all my dears . sori for my late updated . coz this few day got a bit busy and i'm reali no mood to on9 or whatever that i do everydays . i bother for it . bt i will try my best to updated all my blog .
this few day reali moody , feel upset , dissapointed and many many . i cannot control myself dont think about it . coz this is the truth and i'm gonna to accept it . yeah . cheer up .
1st : my results fucking shit and sucks . i'm damn useless . reali reali feel dissapointed . especially some subject . i got do revision and read it . bt i cant score the marks that i want , but the subject that i didnt give any hope of that , instead get high marks . what the fuck man . hate it . so bother .the subjest that i most dissapointed is my BM , SJ . BM is my hopest . i aim my BM can get a higher marks , but the results is NOT . my SJ , i got read it and do revision , but also cant get the marks that i want . its so worst . fucking worst . i reali cannot accept it . i just close my eyes and dont let the tears drop down . at home , just be silent and cries thr . Myself . i know that i'm reali so useless ald . thats meaningless . all is gone . ok . fine . nvm . its over ald . time cant get back . and i'm gonna be more hardworking and do my revison for my final exam and my next year SPM . i promise to myself . cannot be lazy !!
2cd : i feel myself ald change . change a lot . seem not like me ald . how ? why I can be like this ? izit my problem or what ? i feel myself now dont like to talk so much , less laugh and smile , and feel myself be a cold-blooded person . i cant imagine that i can be like this now . what can i do ? escape not a way to solve all the problem . i must be independent , strong , cheerful person . i cannot cried , cannot hide and dont even to think it . sorry for my cold and my changed . all is not ur fault . i'm prefer that i'm nothing and ok . it will be fine and ok soon . i should trust myself . right ? tanx all of you that always by my side .
3rd : U do it again , u do it again , u do it again and again . u hurted me so deep . i cant imagine it . sori . i need some time to cool down myself . sori . is not ur fault . is myself problem . no need feel sori to me . i'll be ok soon . Nvm , just do the things that can u hapi and u like . i wont control u and stop u . as u like . reali nvm . if like that can make u more happier , its ok to me . reali . i know i'm so bother , owiz want u do this do that , and promise this promise that . sori . i know all of this make u so uncomfortable and persecute . so sori . i know myself so useless . cant do anything that can make u happy everyday . heart pain . heart pain . fucking heart pain when i think it . i cried . cried and cried . when u do like that , would u consider with my feeling ? i just hope and want u be honest to me . tell me all the happiness , sadness or whatever happen with u , i dont want got a secret between of us . i dont want like that . and i dont want listen u say sori to me . i dont want reali dont want . i hate to listen it . cried . sori . if i do like that also , what is ur feeling ? heartpain ? angry ? sad ? i think u will know urself . it same for me too . erm . sori . dont even to balme urself again . i will change myself . =] wish it all good luck .
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